Tuesday, July 29, 2008

Taking a much needed break

It's been so busy this summer and I'm starting to feel the weight of it. There's just so much to do and so much getting piled on top of it. I can't seem to keep things straight any more. Even my efforts to keep things straight are just an added effort I have to find time for.

I'm always multi-tasking. I blog when I'm on the computer for something else that I'm waiting to download, for example.

Things have really come down around me recently and I've tried to keep my chin up, but the stress has murdered me physically and worn on me emotionally.

It was the last straw last night when we arrived home from visiting my ailing FIL and found that the dog peed on the bed. I could have sworn I shut the door to the bedroom before I left! It was already after bedtime and I was stripping the bed and doing laundry and redressing the bed. Then, my daughter decided not to fall asleep and when she finally did, my son woke up screaming from a bad dream. I didn't get to sleep until after 11pm. Poor daughter had gas, so I was up a few more times a night before the alarm went off at 5 am. I could literally barely function and just barely made it back to the sofa to fall asleep for at least another hour.

Then, when the morning finally got rolling, my son decided to decorate the living room with his milk and cheerios. Twice, I had to call and argue with a credit card company, but what really threw me over the edge was finding out I completely forgot about my auto insurance payment and it was over due.

With children safely in their cribs, I let my emotion out with a good cry. I felt better on the inside afterwards, but physically I could barely function. As I wrote out the checks for the bills I had to pay, I could barely get the pen to move to make the letters and numbers.

So, my dear son asked to watch "Cows" (Baby Einstein MacDonald's Farm) and invited me to sit and watch with him.

A little rest mixed in with a little industry and amazingly things are getting done around the house.

I really just needed this rest, and I pray for a good night's sleep tonight. I really need that, too.

1 comment:

Pinkology said...

I have been there and I know I will be there again as we have a little one on the way and a preschooler.
There is grace for this!