Saturday, December 31, 2005

Starting My Home Management Binder

Here's the cover I designed:

3 am and here I am!

Ah, pregnancy insomnia. But I don't mind now. I have obligations and duties to fulfill tomorrow, but thankfully they're on a loose schedule. I'm getting used to this being awake. I can't even remember the last time I slept through the night! At least I'm getting prepared for nighttime feedings!

This is actually a blessing because my SIL and brother are heavy sleepers. She will wake up when the baby cries, but it's very difficult for her.

I NEED 8 hours a night, but thankfully it doesn't have to be all at once. Also, I can function on fewer, but I usually end up having a "crash day" where I sleep for a long time during the day. They say you can't make up sleep, but I think that only applies to willingly being up. Like when someone parties, or when hubby and I go see a movie and don't get home until late. When my body forces me awake at one time, it asks me to sleep at another.

I've also noticed that my insomnia is sometimes linked to the amount of activity I do during the day. I sleep better when I exercise and/or have a busy day.

This, to me, is just another example of why women are designed to stay home!


Friday, December 30, 2005

I'M HOME!!!!! Who's close-minded?!

I just want to throw out my arms and sing out a note! Maybe even twirl around like Julie Andrews on the hill in Sound of Music. I'm so excited about the new year and new opportunities ahead of me. My prayer is that I will not forget how I longed to come home while working outside the home. I pray I will not become lazy and passive in the home, but be active and happy. I pray that I will find new venues and opportunities for growth and development in the home and that my conversations with hubby will not become stagnant.

I'm so happy to be finally done with work! Especially since my boss was an hour late without warning! Sheesh! She just never showed up until I had worked an extra hour! Oh well, I'm done!!

Now I can REALLY focus on my home and write about that in my blog rather than complaints about work. ;)

It bothers me that I'm immediately pegged as "close-minded" when someone finds out my religious and/or political standpoint. This is odd because I've been called very open-minded by people who don't know my religious and/or political standpoint. Somehow, though because I'm an evangelical born-again Christian right wing conservative I'm "close-minded" or "narrow-minded." Don't these accusers ever think that I have researched many venues. I have looked down many roads. I do try to walk a mile in someone else's shoes. All these venues, roads, researches, and shoes have led me to my current relgious and political status. Or are they just too narrow-minded to think that someone else thinks differently. ;)

Thursday, December 29, 2005

Light and Salt

As Christians, we're called to not hide our light. We're not supposed to hide the fact that we are Christians. Lately, though, I've begun to feel that the world is trying to hide it for us. More often, I find myself holding my tongue because we're not supposed to offend someone by mentioning our faith. Social organizations in New York State are trying to disallow the public display of religion, even if it's on our own property (like a Christmas nativity). I know people who find the Christian fish on cars to be overly offensive.


A young lady I know was telling me how her father is a confirmed atheist. She said she doesn't mind that, but she can't stand that he becomes very upset and disruptive when a Christian is around, or speaks their mind. I asked her what she meant. She said that he complains bitterly when they're traveling and someone has something Christian on their car. I asked her what she meant by that. She said, "Like a bumpersticker or one of those Jesus fish." This young lady is 14 years old, by the way.

God out of the pledge, God off of our money. Ok, fine. But God off of my car? God off of my property that's in public view? God off my lips?

This little light of mine needs to shine brighter, and so does yours.

Salt. I guess you could say I was a little salty today. :) I was doing some banking and the cashier gave me $100.00 more than I asked for. I didn't realize this until I got to work. So I called her up. She checked her drawer and sure enough, she was short $100.00. So I arranged to get the money back to her, and did. She was VERY thankful! I didn't consider it anything special, but I guess we just have too many dishonest people in the world.

Before you throw me up on some pedestal, I will admit that I went over my books several times hoping to be able to keep the money, that the error was on my part of the addition. But that still-small voice told me that it did not belong to me. So I checked my books one more time, and sure enough I had extra money.

I'm amazed (ok, not really amazed) by the number of people who would have kept the money. Don't they know that I'll be blessed far more for returning the money than they will with expendable, temporary $100 that doesn't belong to them? I know God will bless me financially and spiritually because I returned the money in good faith. We could have used that extra $100, but I know deep down that I'd struggle financially despite it. In returning it, my faith is in God's hands, and what better place for it to be!

Wednesday, December 28, 2005

Sentimental tears of joy

Hubby said something so sweet! He says he's proud of my pregnant belly! That means a lot to me. It's a big boost to my self-esteem. I do love my pregnant figure, but knowing that hubby loves it too, and loves the fact that I am pregnant really helps me feel all that much more better about myself, our marriage, and our future, and even my delivery.

It's true that coaching begins long before the baby's due.


The future....

Yesterday, I got my first garden catalog in the mail! I've already poured through it several times. This one is mostly for trees and shrubs, particularly fruit trees and flowering shrubs. I want to order a ton of stuff out of it and turn my yard into a fruitful garden. But I have to remember two things:

1. I'm pregnant and will give birth during planting season.
2. Hubby has his own ideas about our yard, especially in some tree removal. He can't remove the trees when I have baby plants all over the place!

Next year should probably be yard clean-up year. There was an old shed in the back corner of our property. It fell down and a good deal of it is still down there. That needs to be taken out. There's a volkswagon chassy down there, too. My brother has to haul that out along with loads of his VW stuff piled on the side of a garage. We don't mind keeping it, but I think next year will be a great year to load it up and haul it out.

I also want to eliminate the Touch-Me-Not plants that grow wild all over our yard. That'll be an uphill battle.

Hubby wants to finish the stone wall he's building up front.

I really want to redo the edging around the pond.

The property line that we share with the grain field next door, I want to mow down, get rid of the partially buried barbed wire, and keep it neat, eventually lining it with lilacs and berry bushes.

Behind the garage is a steep hill of poor soil and full shade. I'd like to fill it with a shade garden, but hubby says when he removes some of the trees, I might be able to use that spot for berry bushes.

I love yard work, except for mowing and raking. Hubby and I usually spend the summer evenings working side-by-side on our yard.

Today, I'm able to go shopping and stock up on foodstuffs. I'm excited! I've been wanting to do this all year and finally I can! I have enough extra money to do just that! Praise the Lord!!

Tomorrow, I start on our 2006 budget and sorting paperwork for taxes. I actually don't mind doing taxes. Call me crazy!

Spiritual Warfare

No wonder it's called "warfare!" For years, I've been struggling with a certain temptation and sin. For years, I've been praying to be done with it. True repentance. Yesterday, I was faced with the temptation again and fought it tooth and nail. I ended up sleeping or very tired most of the day, and I think this warfare was part of it. I was about to give in, and praise the Lord, He convicted me strongly. So I gave in to the Lord instead. When I came out victorious (as we always do in the Lord), I felt a new sense of strength and wakefulness! No more heavy burden on my shoulders! The funny thing was the fight actually made my muscles sore, as if I was physically fighting it. But, through God I did it!

Today, the temptation is once again there, but I laugh in its face. I overcame it yesterday, I can overcome it today!!


Tuesday, December 27, 2005

A very merry Christmas indeed!

Hubby and I did have a very Merry Christmas!

On the 23rd, we got to attend the family dinner at my parents' house. My almost 2 year old nephew was my little buddy nearly the whole evening. My dad dressed as Santa Claus and handed out gifts to the little ones. Hubby was able to relax and just have a special evening off. It was such a blessing. The best news, though was little Hannah being born!

On the 24th, hubby's father and step-mother came to visit us. They blessed us with a photo album of old pictures, and some new ones of our neice, and hubby's sister's family. They also blessed us with some baby clothes and a video camera! Hubby loves the video camera. Yet another blessing was hubby and I got to visit my brother, SIL and their new daughter in the hospital! We exchanged gifts there.

On the 25th, I was blessed with hubby going to church with me. We also used the video camera to tape our dog opening gifts. Hubby and I had already given each other ours. Then we went to my folks' to open gifts, and then we went to hubby's mom and step-dad's house to open gifts. When we got home, it was an evening full of relaxation.

We had such a wonderful, relaxing Christmas!


Monday, December 26, 2005

Quiz results

You Are Cream Pie
You're the perfect combo of simplicity and divinity
Those who like you life for understated pleasures
What Kind of Pie Are You?

You Should Learn Swedish
Fantastisk! You're laid back about learning a language - and about life in general.
Peaceful, beautiful Sweden is ideal for you... And you won't even have to speak perfect Swedish to get around!
What Language Should You Learn?

You are a Believer
You believe in God and your chosen religion.
Whether you're Christian, Muslim, Jewish, or Hindu..
Your convictions are strong and unwavering.
You think your religion is the one true way, for everyone.

Saturday, December 24, 2005


On December 12th, my nephew, Nathan was born!

On December 23rd, my neice, Hannah was born!

Still in the womb are:

my cousin Alexander
my cousin Evan

and my own son, Donald.

God is so good!

Something to pray about

Hubby has mentioned a few times working at the farm next door. Hubby currently has a good job that he likes and a boss he's friends with. On the weekends, however, he works at the farm and he enjoys it there too. The men on the farm enjoy his company and work ethic so much, they've offered him a job. Both hubby and I have fantasized about his working there. However, it would mean a nearly 50% cut in wages and a loss of his medical, dental, retirement, and life insurance benefits.

So, what's the debate, then? I can hear the "wise" people of the world asking. Financially, he needs to stay at his current job. Even on paper, this seems logical, with a $700.00 a month mortgage, a baby on the way and the need for a new vehicle.

Well, I already did the math and we could probably make it if we cut hubby's allowance (which he volunteered to do) got rid of a vehicle, and cut a few extras in our lives.

But where's the good that comes out of this?

Hubby would be next door. He'd be able to come home for lunch nearly every day. Our children and I would be able to go visit him during the day. Our children would have access to a farm and all the benefits and learning that come with it. We'd enjoy the simpler life. It's lighter work compared to what he's doing now, but I wouldn't really say that it's safer work. It's probably close to the same on the dangerous job chart. When he does work there, he comes home happier. He'd never be shipped out of town for work again.

Right now, hubby has no intention of leaving his current job. But I've decided to pray about it and leave it in God's hands. He knows where hubby should be.



Thursday, December 22, 2005

Home has new meaning for me

I am convinced that God had to kick me out of the house to get me to realize this. As I approach the end of my employment outside the home, I realize how important my home is, and how joyful I feel when I take care of it. I'm also thankful that God has not provided us with the means to completely fix up the house all at once. I enjoy doing things step by step, one by one. And I look forward to when I can come home to be able to do such things!

I think it really struck me yesterday when I solved a dilemma that's been plaguing my husband and I for months. You see, we don't have a heated mud room, and we have very little closet space. Our coats and hats ended up hanging off the dining room chairs. We both hated that. They're dining room chairs, not closets! I was putting something away in the drawer and I found a cast iron planter hook. Aha!

Right next to the kitchen door is a little alcove between the wall and the fridge. Here I keep a box for recycling papers, a pail for recycling deposit bottles and cans, and the dog's placemat and supper and water dishes are here. But the wall space is unused. So, I found the stud and installed the hook. It's perfect for hubby's coat and chainsaw chaps! Right by the door, easy to get, they'll stay warm, and they'll stay off the dining room chairs! He was so pleased when I showed him, and so proud that I knew to screw the hook into a stud.

Home is where I can create a happy sanctuary for my family. Home is where we're comfy. Home is special and where I belong. I am the mistress of this home and my proud job is to care for it. My creativity and skills are enhanced here at home as I tackle do-it-yourself projects and make my own linens and things. My self-discipline and personal upkeep are enhanced here as well, as I keep up on housework and find time to play with my dog and later, my son.

I have everything I need for my life here at home!

I can take a walk for exercise and social interaction with neighbors.
I can have a small at-home business for financial gain and meeting new people.
I can have a clean house I'm proud of for entertaining and building my hostess skills.
I have time to try new recipes and learn new cooking techniques.
I have gardens to plan and prepare, schedules to maintain, books to keep, orders to fill, demands to meet....and all are fulfilling and work to the betterment of my family.

Bonbons and soaps? Not here! Home means too much to throw it all away in time-wasting. (of course that doesn't mean I don't schedule in some me-time.)


Saturday, December 17, 2005

I am SO ready to come home!

Only 5 more days of work, and then I'm done! I'm so excited, and so ready to come home!

I am thoroughly enjoying my pregnancy, but I can enjoy it more at home when I can do things at my own pace. I actually get quite a bit done when I'm home, and even find time to exercise and rest. (I need to lay down mid-day to help ease back pain and diaphragm pressure). Days when I feel strong, I can do heavier work. Days when I feel weak, I can do lighter work.

At work, I have to do whatever the customer or my boss wants me to. I already told my boss that lifting mannequins is out of the question for me. Well, today, I had to lift a mannequin. :( Now, I'm done in for the rest of the day. I also can't lay down when I need to. Working where I do is just not conducive to my particular pregnancy.

I do feel badly for women who have to work during pregnancy, and I feel bad for those who think they have to work. Pregnancy should be enjoyed and homes should be enjoyed. It's like I BELONG home. When I home, everyone's happier and things get done. Even my brother remarked, "wow, your house is clean!" (I was home for 4 days straight). When I work, nothing gets done, dinners are minimal, and I don't feel well. All for a mere $20.00 a day.

I am so ready to come home! And I think hubby is, too.


Monday, December 12, 2005

Taking Christ out of Christmas

I've got a fight in me! I am very upset at the political correctness that is going too far and manifesting itself as discrimination in sheep's clothing. The minority rules in this country now. The squeeky wheel gets the oil. And the rest of us are quietly complaining in our living rooms rather than standing up and saying and doing something!

This has been going on, not just with Christmas. There's been a mass effort to be rid of Christianity. We just sit idly by and let it happen. We're letting them pick away at our religious freedoms, and one day we'll be scratching our heads as to where it all went. It saddens me that it's taken the attacks on Christmas to get me to stand up and take notice! I'm ashamed of myself, but willing to take a stand now.

Don't think it's really happening? As I hear or read about them, I'm going to be posting how Christianity is being attacked this Christmas season:

First of all, last night I drove more than 20 miles home from my in-law's house. On the way, I only saw one nativity set, but countless Santas, snowmen, snowglobes, bears, penguins, grinches, snoopies, and even a Homer Simpson. But only one nativity set. Even the Catholic Nursing Home I live near had Christmas lights out, but no nativity.

Every where I go, I hear Happy Holidays said with a broken smile of someone hoping they're not offending. Just last year, people all over would wish me "Merry Christmas!"

Christmas trees are now PC'd into being called holiday trees.

Schools and groups are changing lyrics to traditional religious Christmas carols into neutral winter themes.

I read in the paper that Seattle Washington schools had to revoke their December lunch menus because the typist put in "Merry Christmas."

Another Washington school had a wire lighted Christmas tree with paper mittens bearing the names of needy children and a gift wish hanging on it. One, ONE parent complained of the "religious context" behind the tree and the school district bowed down and removed the tree. Since when is a wire tree with mittens bearing good will a religious symbol? If you really wanted to get to the meat of it, Christmas trees are pagan in root, not Christian.

I heard on the Sean Hannity program, a mother called in complaining that her elementary school child couldn't sing Christmas carols that had the word "Christmas" in it, or any other religious connotations. However, they were taught to sing Kwanza songs.

Another caller is a teacher. She said her students also can't have anything to do with the Christian side of Christmas, because of religion needing to be separated from the state. However, the school board approved of students learning about pagan solstice traditions and actually "acting them out."

The New York State Civil Liberties Union states that nativity scenes cannot be placed in the public square because it's "coersion" towards a specific religion. WHAT!?? Ok, I can see if it's a live nativity and Mary and Joseph are aiming weapons at people telling them to repent or die. But a peaceful nativity in a public park coerses people into Christianity unwillingly? You've got to be kidding me! A mennorah doesn't force me to join Judaism.

So what am I going to do about it? I'm going to say "Merry Christmas" every chance I get, and I'm even going to print out a poster for my car that says "Merry Christmas" and has a picture of the nativity. If someone says "Happy Holidays" to me, I'm going to correct them and say, "It's ok to say "merry Christmas" to me."

And yes, I've set up my CHRISTMAS tree!


Saturday, December 10, 2005

Mothers, teach your daughters well

It struck me yesterday that after nearly 4 years of marriage, I'm finally getting the hang of housework. I never realized how much work it really is, and how much I didn't know, and how little discipline I had in that area.

Growing up, I used to play house and dream of keeping my own, tidy home. However, I couldn't even keep my bed fixed and my room neat! I used to whip up imaginary gourmet dinners, but I was almost a teenager before mom let me make my own grilled cheese sandwiches. I promised I'd keep my house neat and clean, but even as I type, I'm in a grand scale decluttering and organizing situation.

I was taught some housekeeping skills, washing clothes, ironing, vacuuming, dusting, washing dishes, cooking, etc. But I was never taught the VALUE of them. Simply making me do them was just a chore. It took a lot of scrambling to clean up when someone called to say they were stopping in, and plenty of embarrassing moments when someone stopped in unexpectedly to make me realize that keeping a tidy, clean house is a difficult, but highly rewarding thing! I also realized that during high stress times for myself and in my marriage occurred around the times the house was filthy. Hubby is more on edge and so am I when the house is sloppy, cluttered and unorganized.

I also want to point out that I AM devalued as a stay-at-home wife when the house is a mess. As horrible as it sounds, it's true. (Let me clarify that my husband does NOT devalue me, but it does cause him to raise questions as to what I do all day if I can't even find time to clean the house.) The first thought that seems to come to people's minds when they know I'm a stay-at-home wife and the house is messy is "bon bons and soap operas." (Never mind that I can't eat chocolate and we don't have TV.) In general, I'm lazy and leeching off my hard-working husband.

Keeping a clean and tidy house is valuable. So mothers, teach your young daughters and joy, peace and comfort of a clean house. Teach your daughters the value and discipline of working well with her hands. Don't just make her vacuum the carpet and assume she's "getting it." Teach your daughers well, and save her the misery of 4 years of trying to "get it right" in her married years.

Friday, December 09, 2005

It's a Boy!

I just found out on Wednesday that hubby and I are having a boy!! This is just what hubby was hoping for and he's so happy! I'm just excited to be one step closer to being prepared. Somehow, for me, knowing the gender makes me feel as if I can organize better, even though most of what we're getting for baby will be unisex for starters since it has to last through 4 children!

Got to go skiing!! More stuff...

Ok, so it was just in my backyard and I took it really easy, but I still got to ski! It feels good to be active again! It's amazing how out of shape I got in just 4 months!

This is getting just plain ridiculous! The "PC Christmas" oh, excuse me, the "holiday" season. We're not allowed to say "Christmas" anymore! I'm fed up. It's CHRISTMAS!!! It's bad enough they've secularized Christmas so much to make it more palatable to the general non-religious and quasi-religious public, but now they want to completely remove it! What really gets my goat is that they say we have to be rid of it because it's religious and religion has no place in the public square. However, I see MORE of other religions coming out as the reduction of Christ is being made.

What gets me laughing is that the "proper" term for today is "Happy Holidays" because it's "religiously neutral." However, "holiday" is just a modernized version of the words "Holy Day" which has EVERYTHING to do with religion!

Christmas now celebrates Winter. Easter now celebrates Spring. The only "holy day" left that is free to be celebrated as is in this country is the pagan holiday of Halloween. People say it's ok because it's not about religion anymore. Well, some people still celebrate it as a religious holiday! Just like Christmas is about Santa and good will, but some people still celebrate it as Christ's birth. And Easter is about bunnies and eggs, but some people still celebrate it as Christ's sacrifice and rising from the grave. What's the difference?! The difference is that Halloween is pagan and and Christmas and Easter are Christian. Christianity is the only avenue of discrimination that's allowed (and even encouraged) in the world today.

Don't believe me? Then how come Christmas trees are called "holiday trees" now.