Wednesday, December 31, 2008

Babies!

I've met two other women online who are due this summer just like me! Babies!! I'm so glad my online gals are excited for me. It's rather sad that those around me here aren't. It's not that they're not happy. Rather than the cheers and hugs I received after announcing my pregnancy with Baby Girl, I get, "Oh." Just a simple, "Oh." It's gotten so bad that I don't even want to tell anyone else I'm pregnant, especially a certain person who only days before I found out I am pregnant told me she hoped God would hold off pregnancy for me. I guess I just don't understand, especially in the Christian community, the neutral to negative attitudes towards pregnancy and babies.

I'll admit, I wasn't aiming for pregnancy this early after giving birth, but every since we started "breeding re-enactors" hubby and I knew we'd take what we were given, when we were given them with such joy and thanksgiving.

I received a call today from Concerned Women for America. Apparently, Obama wants his first action as president to be passing into law the Pro-Choice Act which would completely make abortion in most, if not all forms Federally legal and even if Roe v. Wade were overturned, this law would make the overturning null and void. The law would also force all tax payers to somehow fund abortions. (They've already done that in the county just north of me. Tax payer money was used to pay for an inmate's abortion simply because she didn't want the baby. This went through despite an overwhelming majority of taxpayers and voters who were against this.)

They asked for a donation, but I don't do such things over the phone. I asked them to mail me information and assured them I'd post their website on my blog. Do your homework, contact your politicians, and pray fervently for the unborn in America.

www.cwfa.org

Tuesday, December 30, 2008

Beautiful Nausea

Hubby and I are so relieved! I have nausea! Things are looking up for this pregnancy! I'm also convinced that I'm having a boy. All signs point that way.

As I go through my first trimester, I'll let you know how I feel because I'm fairly convinced that taking dietary measures are helping me feel better. I cut way back on refined sugars and white flour. I've cut back on carbs and eat loads of proteins (eggs, cheese, nuts, etc). I'm eating more veggies. I'm drinking kombucha, raw milk, and Bulk Herb Store's Pregnancy Tea. I'm taking a multi-vitamin, B6, Cod Liver Oil, and Folic Acid.

My typical breakfast is two eggs, fruit and nuts.
Lunch is usually a salad topped with feta cheese and cashews.
Dinner is balanced.

There are many benefits to Bulk Herb Store's Pregnancy Tea, but one unexpected benefit for me is that it quenches my unquenchable pregnancy thirst. I drink plenty of water when I'm pregnant, but I always have an unquenchable thirst. This tea really stops that unneccesary thirst.

Well, I'm off to make a mug of that tea and a mug of Orange Spice tea for hubby!

Monday, December 29, 2008

Clean Slate

I'm not one to leave Christmas decorations up past the New Year. When Christmas is over, it's over. So, down came the decorations and out went the tree in record time. I got everything neatly packed away, taped up and labeled just in case we move. If we don't, at least I'm all the more organized for next year.

I did lots of cleaning and organizing today. I had to be creative with my exercise program, so I put in the new Sugarland cd and danced with the kiddos for 1/2 an hour.

It feels good to see the house so "open" again. While I enjoyed the coziness of the garlands and the tree and all the little twinkly lights, it's always nice to take everything down. It makes the house look lighter and brighter.

In preggy news, I'm still not sick nor am I feeling pregnant in any way. That's not good news. I'm not going to the doctor because they can't do anything anyway. In my second miscarriage, at 8 weeks an ultrasound showed the baby's heart beating strong. 3 weeks later, she was dead, so seeing a heartbeat isn't ensuring of anything for me. At least not this early. All I can do is wait it out and continue with life as normal.

I am eating a very healthful diet, taking appropriate vitamins and supplements for pregnancy and drinking Bulk Herb Store's Pregnancy Tea.

Friday, December 26, 2008

Preparations

Hubby and I agree that if he does secure a job southwards and we secure a house, then we're going to ask my little brother if he would like to come live with us and search for a better job for himself. *note to my sister---don't say anything yet to him!*

Even though we're still in limbo and nothing is definate, I've started a box of stuff that'll go towards our moving sale. If everything falls through, at least I'll have a really great garage sale in 2009!

I'm 6 weeks preggers and still no sign of morning sickness. While that's not completely alarming, the fact that I really don't feel pregnant is. I know it is early, but with my viable pregnancies, I was already feeling pregnant and sick by now. With my pregnancies that ended in miscarriage, I didn't feel pregnant and, in fact, felt great! I feel great, which isn't good.

I've been through 2 miscarriages before. While they sadden me, I am comforted by the Lord and in knowing that my babies are with Him. I also know that I am not done having children. I know I'll have more.

Of course, as soon as you go through a miscarriage, every subsequent pregnancy is put through a personal analysis that just ends in "will I, won't I" arguments with yourself. I am doing my best to just ignore it all and move on. There's no use getting worked up over something that might or might not happen.

Tuesday, December 23, 2008

Plans and Dream Shifted

I had made so many plans and had so many dreams for 2009 and the coming years. They've all changed. I'm not upset. I'm just taken aback. Everything I scratched down in notebooks and in my mind needs to be tossed out and room made for even bigger plans.

Right now, we're in limbo. We have to wait until after the first of the year.

Candy, I think it would be so cool to be neighbors with you! However, hubby doesn't have a job possibility in Oklahoma, though he does in North Carolina. We just have to see if the company will hire him. The foreman wants hubby to work for him, but it's up the company. The company is a union company. Even though hubby is already in the same union, sometimes they have ridiculous and impossible hoops to jump through.

One thing I am looking forward to if we do move is the massive cleaning and decluttering that'll go on while packing.

Oh, and I have chosen a house already and we hope it's still on the market if hubby does get the job. (And may the Lord bless us with a speedy and generous buyer for our current home.) We can't believe the for the same price we paid for our tiny cottage on half and acre, we can get a bigger house on acreage! I can hardly contain myself thinking about all the land (and longer growing season) to put gardens in. And my daughter would have her own room I could totally girl-out in! We might even be able to afford that horse hubby's been wanting for years!!

Prospects are so exciting, aren't they? And, no, I'm not becoming discontent with our current home and situation, because all this right here, right now is a very obvious blessing from the Lord.

Sunday, December 21, 2008

Joining the mass exodus....

Hubby and I are seriously looking into moving out of the state we live in. In fact, many middle class, average American taxpayers are leaving this state. We're heavily taxed. Jobs aren't that great. The schools are horrible. Our politicians are massively corrupt and are planning on adding more taxes, fees, restrictions, regulations, etc. They don't strip away our personal freedoms outright....they just tax, fee and regulate them so much, we can't afford them!

Moving is going to break my mother's heart. It is going to break mine as well. I love where we live. I'm surrounded by family I can see at any given moment. I have love, support, help and prayers at a moment's notice from people I trust whole-heartedly.

Yet, at the same time I'm excited at the prospect of moving. The state hubby might have a job offer in has a VERY affordable housing market. We can get a 3-4 bedroom farmhouse on 2-5 acres of land for LESS than what we paid for our tiny 2-bedroom cottage on half an acre. To have another house to turn into a castle excites me. Hubby's excited at the prospect of having land to stretch out in....perhaps get a horse....start a hobby farm. I'm wondering who we'll meet. What friends we'll make. What church I'll go to.

But, oh, I'll miss my family.

I've been personally feeling the push to leave, though. Whenever I'd think about the daunting addition we planned for our little cottage, I knew it would take a miracle to be able to afford it. As I thought about it, I always felt this thought creep into the back of my mind, "Don't worry about the addition. You're going to move." As the State gets worse and worse, we're finding ourselves with little to no choice. So many things are changing around us, and not for the better.

At one point a few years ago, people talked about the United States being divided into "The United Socialist States of America" and "Jesus Land." There were even political cartoons with maps drawn out to show which states would be included with each nation. We're looking at moving to "Jesus Land" which suits me just fine! I just wish I could pack my entire family in my suitcase and take them with me.

Unexpectedly Expecting

Yep, only 6 months post-partum, and I'm preggers! Hubby and I are happy, of course. I'm saying it's a boy. The only problem is I'm having very few symptoms, which in the past meant miscarriages for me. So, it's a one-day-at-a-time deal. I'm also wondering if my vast reduction in carbs, particularly refined ones, and my consumption of Vitamin B6-rich raw milk and my daily glass of kombucha are warding off symptoms. Only time will tell. I was sicker with my daughter than with my son, so that's an indicator that I'm having a boy.

Friday, December 12, 2008

Ice Ice Baby, Haulin' Kiddos, Exercise

Yep, we're not just snowed in, we're iced in! Thankfully, our power didn't go out and I had a blast plowing the driveway with hubby's 4-wheeler! Everything is all crystal-sparkly! I'd take the kiddos for a walk in the woods, but it's too dangerous. While plowing, several branches fell. When they pop off the trees while covered in ice, it sounds like a gun-shot going off. I didn't flinch the first time because I thought it was a gun-shot. (You know you're a country-gal when gun-shots don't bother you!)

I've had people come up to me and tell me they can't believe I do my errands with my two children in tow. I don't think much of it. They're hardly apart from me! When the pediatrician asked if my daughter has separation anxiety, I couldn't answer because we're not apart. (When we are apart, she's with someone she's very familiar with, like Grandma or Daddy.) I'm just used to it. Sometimes, it is difficult, especially in winter weather or when things take longer than planned. It's also hard because some stores don't have shopping carts suitable for carrying an infant and a toddler and groceries.

As a side note, I just have to say I LOVE Target! I love that they do have shopping carts that'll accomodate kiddos. I love that they have a very large "family bathroom." I love that they have better quality stuff than Walmart for the most part. I love their wider, more unique selection. I love that they don't pipe cheap music and ridiculous commercials through the store. It's nice and quiet. I love that their employees are very well trained, abundant, and have a high morale. They use headsets to communicate with each other rather than blasting through the sound system, "Joe, call on line one!" And I love that they're never as busy as Walmart, so I get through quickly and more peacefully. The store aisles are wider. The shelves are tidy. Things are better organized. And I've NEVER seen boxes piled up and shopping carts blocking things. Sure, they're a little more expensive (their formula is only a penny more than walmart's), but it's so worth the little extra money for the shopping peace.

I've been changing up my work-out routine a little. I'm not doing as much aerobics. I read that aerobic bouncing (step aerobics, etc) can jostling the ligaments around our hips and cause problems in the kegal area. We ladies have rather flexable hips to accomodate childbirth. Heavy aerobics can pull on those ligaments...and that just doesn't sound good to me.

My weight loss is at a complete stand still. While everyone says I look thinner, my weight hasn't budged, nor have my measurements. It is time to amp it up a bit. I've been cutting back on carbs and portion sizes. Yoga helped burn the last bit of baby weight after Bubby was born. I found a yoga segment on my pilates DVD. I love yoga, and am thankful for Denise Austen. She has great yoga but doesn't even hint at the religious part of it. I avoided yoga for years because of the religious part of it. It was hard to find a video that had just the moves.

Oh, by the way, my computer fixed itself somehow. It's slow and clunky, but as you can see, I'm back online.

Wednesday, December 10, 2008

Snowed In

It looks like I'm going to be snowed in for a couple of days. Of course, I don't mind at all. I'm looking forward to it!

We already have our Christmas decorations up....except for our tree. That'll go up Saturday! The house looks so comforting when all the indoor Christmas lights are on.

We just got word that our town is looking to heavily restrict and regulate the use of outdoor wood boilers. We have one and under the proposed regulations, the town would have the power to make us turn it off and get rid of it, if they so choose. We're attending a public hearing on the issue soon.

Not only is this giving the local government too much power, but their reasons behind it are totally ridiculous. They say the environmental impact of these boilers is too heavy. Since when is burning wood an environmental hazzard!! God regulated nature itself to burn wood! Man has been burning wood since Adam and Eve needed it after eviction from the garden. They say it's the emissions from the chimneys and that oil is a better fuel to use. Never mind that they're completely ignoring the environmental impact of obtaining, refining, shipping and using fossil fuels! At least we're burning local wood, keeping local loggers in business and carefully managing our own woodlots and removing hazzardous trees and storm-felled trees.

Not one neighbor has complained about the smoke smell. Most people I know actually LIKE the smell of wood smoke. I could go on and on.....

It just irks me that with all the other problems out there and other zoning issues, once again government is picking on the average tax-paying Joe who just wants to afford to live a half-way decent life and take care of his family.

Wednesday, December 03, 2008

Fowl Idea and more...

Hubby and I are actually considering raising quail! I'm excited! I have such a vision for our little bit of earth and raising quail certainly fits into that scheme. From what I understand, quail can't survive winters here, but they're usually bought as chicks in the spring and butchered in time for the holidays.

Hubby expressed a desire to be able to work at the farm next door in order to spend more time with his family. The very same desire has been weighing heavily on my heart and mind recently, even more so than usual. Right now we cannot afford it financially. It would take a miracle. I'm stepping out in faith this Christmas season concerning it. How can we put our heads together and make this work?! My mind is swimming and I honestly feel as if someone is deep within my chest screaming, "Cry out to God!"

Oh, if only the farm could at least pay him $20.00 an hour.

We've gone through some tough and stressful times recently. I am in awe of God's work through it all, though. We've been blessed, we're closer than we've ever been as spouses and as a family. We're more content than before.

Well, I best head off to bed.