More Woman-Talk Ahead....
There are a few more reasons why my milk failed:
1. I never bothered correcting a poor latch-on because it didn't hurt me and she seemed to be nursing well despite it. Both Bubby and Baby Girl have a slightly convex upper lip between nose and mouth. It's an endearing feature, but their upper lip would curve in rather than flanging outward during nursing. She often would "click" while nursing. Now I know that this was a BIG faux pas!
2. She was a fast nurser and I was glad of it. Most of my nursing sessions lasted under 5 minutes!! She would drink away the let-down, switch sides and need a burp and then sleep for 3 hours. I'd be happy and get up and go start another project. Not good...not good.
3. With Bubby, I LOVED the Baby Whisperer books. Now, I feel like they contributed to many issues, including nursing. The author is against letting a baby comfort-suckle mommy because it makes them too dependant blah blah blah. So, I had it in my head to not allow Baby Girl to pacify herself on me. Consequently, she lost the comfort that only mommy can give, and I lost the stimulation and release of oxytocin that could have greatly improved the quality and duration of nursing.
Today, while I was dressing my hair for church, I looked in the mirror and realized that I look older, but that I looked...well...pretty. It dawned on me that my fight for thinness wasn't necessarily about health and well-being, but it was about vanity and trying to stay young. Part of it, too was that I didn't want to join the ranks of so many American women who "let themselves go" after having a kid or two. In the mirror this morning, I decided that it was ok to "age gracefully," of course still taking care of myself, but also realizing that I can't and shouldn't try looking like a teenager or college chick. I've gone from maiden to matron.
I want to be clear that not one of those rude comments I mentioned in yesterday's post were uttered or even suggested by my hubby. He loves ME.
Here's a question: I'm still making some watery milk. Not much, but some. My daughter actually nursed a little last night before dozing off again and I nursed her after church and then pumped 1/2 an ounce. Is it not futile? Can I relactate? I'm willing to give it a try. I'm thinking of checking out the health food store for a nursing tea.
PS. I also only just learned that women who have a hard time carrying their babies to term can have trouble lactating. All of my babies were premature or miscarried.